No I don't know when I'm leaving yet and nope all the support for going to Ivory Coast is not yet there. But in this time when I am still here God is teaching me something that I will need to know for the rest of my life. That if I feel like I am in need here, there will be something that I feel like I still need in Africa or wherever else I go. There will always be something that I need and can chose to focus on, what I do not have. But, I am learning that God has actually already given me all I need. He has given me Jesus and Him with me every day is more than enough. To know that every day I can talk to Him and listen to Him and live for Him. To know that His love for me is forever and that it never fails. To know that I can cast my cares on God because He cares for me, and that He is a solid rock that I can stand on. I can trust Him and His timing because He is faithful and knows what I don't.
God tells me, "I am the Lord, the God of all mankind. Is anything too hard for me?" (Jeremiah 32:27) It makes me laugh as He opens my eyes to see how much bigger He is than the things I think are problems. If He wanted me to be in Africa by now, it would have happened. But I'm not, so instead of asking why I will ask Him what He is doing here/ trying to teach me now. Like patience, how to wait on Him, and humility in admitting that I am not in charge (and that is actually a good thing!). To trust that He will provide and make it clear when it is time to go. And that He still has a plan for me right where I am! So although I am still here and not sure whether I will be leaving in 2 weeks or 2 months, I really am content with where I am and not knowing what lies ahead. It's even kind of exciting. To trust that God is working in peoples hearts to partner with me in this, and that He will orchestrate the plans of how it will all happen and work out. When I realize this is all in God's hands, it's freeing too, that I don't need to know the details, the how and why and when. What I need is to know Jesus. I need to know He is with me here and now and always will be with me, forever. And that all the things I want to know are not greater than what I already have in Him.
